Oh Lordy, Let There Be No Tapes
June 12, 2017

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I wake up to birds outside screaming because I’m late. Usually I’m outside on the patio by now taking in the morning-glory of life. So I move my unresponsive legs off the bed hoping to find the floor and Eberhard says, “Careful, careful”. I make my way to the bathroom to relieve myself. All goes well except for the thoughts that start running through my head as memories from last night start to float past me. I get to the sink to wash my hands and lo and behold there’s a huge zit on my upper lip between my nose and mouth. What? Who gets this at 68? Last week it was one on my nose. God hates me.

I make coffee (I only have one cup a day, but I love it in the morning) and I make my way out to the patio to take in life for the day. I’m naked. Not a pretty site, but I’m protected (and so is the world) by an 8 foot wall around me. The birds start laughing at me in great furor. I am not my usual self, ready to take a moment to meditate. Instead I have these flashbacks….”oh my God, did I do that?” Jeff (karaoke man) why didn’t you stop me?” And Bobby,  you were suppose to keep me in check….. you even said to others that “I was never the same after my mild stroke.”

The evening was enlightening. We started out by meeting friends and their family relatives visiting from Georgia. It’s our ‘solving the world’s problems’ (Trump, etc.) get together that we have occasionally on a Sunday. Of course we discuss the delicate matters over a few glasses of wine. It was a very interesting perspective, not one we were accustomed to, as we tried to figure out why people are attracted to Trump, and why they can believe his rhetoric. We surmised, part of it was education, another part was environment and what they see around them, but mostly it was what people don’t see as they view their lives from  a finite perspective. In conclusion we decided “not to worry”…..this too will pass.

Dancing in front of the karaoke singers was just part of it. There was the bus ride from our beginning location to the karaoke bar. We got the whole bus to ‘rock’. Everyone got off at our stop and the bus driver was relieved, just hoping for a few more silent moments until his shift finished. Still, I remember Jeff encouraging myself and Bobby to sing. Not a nice picture or sound for that matter. Everyone run……run for your lives.

In conclusion, at some point in time, we all need a little release on whatever level makes us comfortable.  Just look at the TV in this moment. Trump, is surrounded by his cabinet in their absorbent moment of self-aggrandizement.  This is their moment of release.

True or False?

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Two Words
March 21, 2017

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“Help me”!

I was standing next to the nurses station as I turned to look from where the words came. Behind me, leaning against the corner stood a tall woman. With a stylish haircut and pajamas covered by a bath robe, she stared into my eyes with such deep penetration and pain, I could feel it in my stomach. That accompanied by the sound she used to convey her pain made everyone around the room, look in her direction. A nurse immediately went and placed her in a wheel chair.

My husband and I were here to admit his mother into a skilled nursing facility. For the past eight years, until this time she had been living with us. Recently diagnosed with moderate Alzheimer’s and the difficulty we’d been experiencing in keeping her safe and healthy, her doctor had recommended we place her under nursing care.

The decision had been fractious and frustrating. Much more personally for my husband. We admitted that the past few years with her had been much more difficult than when she first moved in with us. Unable to accept any guidance from us, she became increasingly angry, resistant to help and now, distant, to the point where she shut us out of her room daily except for meals and her multiple cups of tea. Coupled with her lapses in memory, anorexia issues, and habitual nervous rubbing of her face and hands, we felt challenged constantly. We would wake up each day and wonder what complexities we would face. She was not happy and we were not happy.

The nurses at the facility arranged for a smooth transition from us admitting her, out of sight, and getting her acquainted with her room and surroundings. At an appropriate time, the nurses asked us to leave, and to entrust the rest to them.

I’m sure, that all aspects of this transition with everyone involved brought many emotions to the forefront. We experienced depression, guilt, loss and they are ongoing and will be for a while. I’m sure the mother experienced similar, along with anger, frustration and even hate.

Reflections of our lives and what brought us to this point are universal in nature. Somewhere in each of us there is a part of us that is crying out.

“Help me”!.

 

Beginning of………
February 3, 2017

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A Rock
December 3, 2016

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A rock is obtuse. It lacks the ability to discern insight, therefore it is solid in its makeup. It blends in with its surroundings, but in reality it is just ‘there’. It gives nothing. But, it takes something.

It takes space and the ability to absorb energy. Energy it absorbs is never given back in equal amounts of what is taken. On the contrary, it takes and takes and takes. Weather it is sunlight, air, or any energy, it sucks it from it’s source.

The purpose behind a rock is to reassure humanity that there is stability. An anchor for its inequality. A rock is a rock is a rock.

If you meditate on ‘rock’ you will find a deep, deep sense of solidness and anchoring. It will scare you with its depth.

How then does a human turn into a ‘rock’?

Probably, lack of love.

Give and take.

On both sides.

Sad.

 

Elect shun
November 11, 2016

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Pre-election jitters induced angst and anxiety. Post election results produced anger with one half of America’s population and joy with the other half. It’s hard to reconcile all of these emotions with so many people involved.

The ones in anger feel robbed. They feel loss and they are hurt deeply. Loss is never a good feeling and feeling pain along with the loss tends to breed more anger, hate and prejudice. Possibly the three emotions they were initially trying to remove from the election rhetoric.

In moments like this, clarity is needed. And, unless you’ve experienced and felt an elevated form of clarity throughout your life it may not seem like the solution. Clarity is learned from personal experiences. It’s a feeling which lets you know: ‘you can’t be robbed’. Nothing can be taken from you that you’ve learned, that you instinctively know within or what you won’t relinquish.

The pain must be worked through with love and understanding.

Time will take care of the rest.

Suffering
November 5, 2016

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What is suffering? Aleppo? Intensions? Imaginary belief? Your life?

He tells me he is suffering, and no one knows how he feels.

I think, is this true? We all suffer in our own ways and means.

In a drawn out conversation, I tell him to give what he feels to his partner. Will this work? Probably not in this case. It’s an elliptical cure that can’t be resolved on a intellectual level. This is all emotion. Some one of the two, has to, break the ice and reveal the trouble.

The answer is not what either wants to hear, but it will lead them to a conclusion. Conclusions can be painful. You have to do what is in your heart.

Heart felt conclusions leave you empty.

Unfortunately, that is how life works and you move on. Good or bad.

In the end there is peace.

Change and The Unknown
October 5, 2016

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ACACIUS

(To ALL)

NICE JOB LADIES, NICE JOB! I SEE YOU BOTH HAVE ANOTHER SONG YOU’RE GOING TO SING. LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, THIS ONE IS CALLED: INVISIBLE HIGH HEELS. I GUESS THAT EXPLAINS WHY YOU’RE TAKING YOUR HIGH HEELS OFF.

 

 

(CHANGE and THE UNKNOWN remove their high heels and hold them in their hands. THEY commit to a cheeky sultry song and dance routine using the piano and bar stools. THE TRIUMVIRATE become the backup dancers and do stylized light tap during the chorus. Music Video 7 begins and depicts scenes from the song)

 

 

CHANGE AND THE UNKNOWN

INVISIBLE HIGH HEELS

(Hiding their high heels behind their backs and standing on tip toe as if their shoes were on)

HAVE NO TRAINING WHEELS

(Showing their high heels with no training wheels)

THEY’RE SO WONDERFUL TO WEAR

(Putting their shoes back on)

YOU’LL FEEL LIKE

YOU’RE WALKING ON AIR

(Air shoots up from the floor)

BUT BEWARE

THE UNKNOWN IS A DARE

WHERE LIFE IS LAID BARE

WITH A KEY FOR TOMORROW

WE’RE UNABLE TO BORROW

OOOH, OOOH, OOOH

(With a sexy curtsy)

WE’RE UNABLE TO BORROW

 

CHANGE

WE’RE YOUNG AND FULL OF ENERGY

IN A HOSTILE WORLD OF SYNERGY

CONSTANT CHANGE CREATES

UNAWARENESS AND EXCHANGE

LEARNING BECOMES AN EXPERIENCE

THAT ALLOWS YOUTHS DISAPPEARANCE

AND LIFE AROUND YOU

MORPHS INTO PERSEVERANCE

 

CHANGE AND THE UNKNOWN

INVISIBLE HIGH HEELS

(Hiding their high heels behind their backs and standing on tip toe as if their shoes were on)

HAVE NO TRAINING WHEELS

(Showing their high heels with no training wheels)

THEY’RE SO WONDERFUL TO WEAR

(Putting their shoes back on)

YOU’LL FEEL LIKE

YOU’RE WALKING ON AIR

(Air shoots up from the floor)

BUT BEWARE

THE UNKNOWN IS A DARE

WHERE LIFE IS LAID BARE

WITH A KEY FOR TOMORROW

WE’RE UNABLE TO BORROW

OOOH, OOOH, OOOH

(With a sexy curtsy)

WE’RE UNABLE TO BORROW

 

THE UNKNOWN

OUR INVISIBLE HIGH HEELS

(Hiding their high heels behind their backs and standing on tip toe as if their shoes were on)

ARE LOFTY IDEALS

(Holding their shoes high into the air)

FALLING IN LOVE HIDES AND CONCEALS

THE UNKNOWN AND ALL ITS ORDEALS

IN A WORLD OF UNOPENED OYSTERS

WE DEVOUR NEWNESS IN CLOISTERS

ACCOMPLISHMENTS BECOME PEARLS

AND DISCOVERY IS REPLACED BY BURLS

OOOH, OOOH, OOOH

(With a sexy curtsy)

OOOH, OOOH, OOOH

(With a sexy curtsy)

 

CHANGE AND THE UNKNOWN

INVISIBLE HIGH HEELS

(Hiding their high heels behind their backs and standing on tip toe as if their shoes were on)

HAVE NO TRAINING WHEELS

(Showing their high heels with no training wheels)

THEY’RE SO WONDERFUL TO WEAR

(Putting their shoes back on)

YOU’LL FEEL LIKE

YOU’RE WALKING ON AIR

(Air shoots up from the floor)

BUT BEWARE

THE UNKNOWN IS A DARE

WHERE LIFE IS LAID BARE

WITH A KEY FOR TOMORROW

WE’RE UNABLE TO BORROW

OOOH, OOOH, OOOH

(With a sexy curtsy)

WE’RE UNABLE TO BORROW

 

 

CERTAINTY OF AGE

INVISIBLE FROM OUR CAGE

MAKES LIFE A CHARADE

OTHERS SEE OLD

EVEN THOUGH

WE HAVE INNER GOLD

MOMENTS DISAPPEAR

AND BECOME UNCLEAR

THEIR TIME HAS ARRIVED

AND LEFT US DEPRIVED

JUST LIKE THE FINAL SEQUEL

THAT LEAVES US ALL EQUAL

 

INVISIBLE HIGH HEELS

(Hiding their high heels behind their backs and standing on tip toe as if their shoes were on)

HAVE NO TRAINING WHEELS

(Showing their high heels with no training wheels)

THEY’RE SO WONDERFUL TO WEAR

(Putting their shoes back on)

YOU’LL FEEL LIKE

YOU’RE WALKING ON AIR

(Air shoots up from the floor)

BUT BEWARE

THE UNKNOWN IS A DARE

WHERE LIFE IS LAID BARE

WITH A KEY FOR TOMORROW

WE’RE UNABLE TO BORROW

OOOH, OOOH, OOOH

(With a sexy curtsy)

WE’RE UNABLE TO BORROW

OOOH, OOOH, OOOH

(With a sexy curtsy)

OOOH, OOOH, OOOH

(With a sexy curtsy)

 

Knowledge and Limitations from One a musical
October 2, 2016

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LIMITATIONS AND KNOWLEDGE
(Enter the bar with everyone giving them strange looks. THEY are dressed in costumes from a costume party THEY had just left. LIMITATIONS is dressed as a giant bee carrying a see through screen in a window frame. KNOWLEDGE is dressed as a leather bound book)

ACACIUS
(Looking up and seeing LIMITATIONS and KNOWLEDGE come into the bar)
WELL, WELL, WELL, A BEE AND A LEATHER BOUND BOOK WALK INTO A BAR

(Customers begin to laugh, but welcome them as THEY move toward ACACIUS with a CD he can play for their karaoke number. THEY hand the CD to ACACIUS)

THANKS FELLAS. WHAT’S WITH YOUR COSTUMES?

KNOWLEDGE
(Speaking into ACACIUS’ microphone)
OUR FRIEND HAS AN ANNUAL COSTUME PARTY WHERE YOU HAVE TO DRESS UP AS SOMETHING PERTAINING TO A LIFE EXPERIENCE. WE CHOSE KNOWLEDGE AND LIMITATIONS. THE TITLE OF THE SONG WE’RE GOING TO SING IS CALLED; PAIN IN THE GLASS.
(EVERYONE laughs)

ACACIUS
(Laughing)
OKAY BOYS. I’VE GOT YOUR CD IN, THERE’S THE STAGE, DO YOUR THING.

KNOWLEDGE AND LIMITATIONS
(Move on stage and position themselves. THE TRIUMVIRATE move in closer to the stage area with tenseness. LIMITATIONS begins a frantic dance back and forth behind the see through screen trying to get through the invisible barrier. Music Video 10 begins and is Flight of the Bumble Bee played intermittently each time LIMITATIONS tries to break through the barrier, with the music from Pain In The Glass)

LIMITATIONS
(Looking through the see through screen to see KNOWLEDGE on the other side)
EACH DAY I APPROACH THIS WINDOW PANE
LOOKING OUT FEELING PAIN FROM DRAIN
MY HOPES AND WISHES, DREAMS AND MORE
CONFRONT A BARRIER I CAN’T IGNORE
MY INTUITION I ADORE
IT’S LIFE IN FULL COLOR
THIS PANE OF GLASS
IN BLACK AND WHITE
STOPS THE PROMISE TO DISCOVER
MY BIRTHRIGHT, BEAUTY AND LIGHT
(Flight of the Bumble Bee plays as LIMITATIONS does a frantic dance in which HE bounces off the screen each time HE tries to get through the screen)

KNOWLEDGE
(Beginning to open some of the pages from the book on the other side of the screen, so LIMITATIONS can see. CONTROL from THE TRIUMVIRATE steps up to KNOWLEDGE and tries to stop KNOWLEDGE from opening the pages in the book and showing his knowledge to LIMITATIONS. KNOWLEDGE pushes CONTROL away)
LET ME SHOW YOU WHAT I KNOW
LOOK AROUND
(LIMITATIONS looks behind himself)
TAKE A STEP BACK
(LIMITATIONS steps back from the glass pane)
THERE’S ROOM TO MOVE IF YOU BACKTRACK
ELIMINATE THE STRUGGLE
DON’T BE BOUND BY THIS PUZZLE
THE OPEN DOOR IS WORTHWHILE
(HE points to an open door behind LIMITATIONS)
GOING AGAINST THE PANE IS JUST FUTILE

LIMITATIONS
BUT I CAN SEE TO THE OTHER SIDE
DO YOU REALLY THINK IT’S MY PRIDE?
IT’S MY JOURNEY AND CLEAR AS DAY
NOT ILLUSIONS OR LACK OF THOUGHT I PRAY
THIS RESISTANCE IS ONLY CHILD’S PLAY
I’LL FIND THE OPEN GATEWAY
IT WON’T BE LONG, I’M NEVER WRONG
AND MY INNER CHILD STILL YOUNG AND STRONG
MAKES LOVE OF TRYING AN UNCONDITIONAL SONG
(Flight of the Bumble Bee plays as LIMITATIONS does another frantic dance, bouncing off the screen)

KNOWLEDGE
LET ME SHOW YOU WHAT I KNOW
LOOK AROUND
(LIMITATIONS looks behind himself)
TAKE A STEP BACK
(LIMITATIONS steps back from the glass pane)
THERE’S ROOM TO MOVE IF YOU BACKTRACK
(HE points to an open door behind LIMITATIONS)
ELIMINATE THE STRUGGLE
DON’T BE BOUND BY THIS PUZZLE
THE OPEN DOOR IS WORTHWHILE
GOING AGAINST THE PANE IS JUST FUTILE
(Flight of the Bumble Bee plays as LIMITATIONS does another frantic dance)

LIMITATIONS
THEN I ASK
I NEED NOT BASK
I JUST WANT HOME AND AN EASIER TASK
IT’S THE JOURNEY THAT GIVES THE ANSWERS
NOT THE SURROUNDING SHADOWS AND DANCERS
TRUST MY INTUITION
DURING THIS TRANSITION
MY DESTINATION
WAS ALWAYS SUPPOSITION
I SHOULD HAVE GIVEN IN
TO KNOWING AND ADMISSION
(Flight of the Bumble Bee plays as LIMITATIONS does another frantic dance and collapses to the floor exhausted)

Power Wrap
June 29, 2010

Power wraps can be with almost any material. There are food elements, energy elements and even people elements. The one I noticed recently was a young person behind the wheel of his muscle car. Extending his personality to the car to exemplify who he is or what he wants to show to the world. Some use loud music, some use clothing, some use money and some use an inflated ego. All disguised so as to hide the inside truth. If you can make it past the ‘wrap’ and tap the essence you’ll usually find a person craving love. Somewhere along the line, tangled thinking has created a need to personify the lack of love into a material presence that someone will recognize and give credence to. Some form of love is fulfilled .

Lets make a power wrap. You’ll need an outside material and an inside filling, and, you’ll have to choose your favorite ingredients to make this your very own. Using all fresh materials or experiences layered inside a strong casing that holds it all together and says WOW!

Since we can’t communicate directly, let me choose the information you will need to know. Lets begin with the outside. If this is going to be a power wrap, you’ll need a casing that has the strength of armor, yet be pliable and, flexible enough to withstand the push of internal or external ingredients or influences that will be trying to force their existence. It will have to tolerate hot and cold temperatures and it will have to please, yet fascinate, all the five senses. Choose the materials for the outside wrap so it personifies who you are and what you embody as a human being.

For the filling, you will need an energy source mixed with experiences. This is so it can resonate with the elements around you. You don’t want it to be sticky, gooey, lumpy or tasteless. Layer your filling with structure, strength and stature in purity, transparency and wholesomeness. Add ingredients that make you unique, cherished and humble.

When forming the final wrap , make sure the ingedients are held tightly inside with no leakages or unsealed edges. You want to preserve the best for a long time so you don’t produce a messy outcome when you start to engage the world.

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