Archive for October, 2013

October 19, 2013

to give

The act of giving without reward.

She approaches me on the dance floor and says to me, “I hate it when gays show up in a club”. I asked her to repeat what she said and she said the same words.

Here is an obese woman, that is unattractive (in normal descriptions) and can’t dance, telling me I shouldn’t be here.

This is a GAY CLUB. You’re here because it’s politically correct and no other reason. We accept YOU. Not the other way around.

If you don’t like gays, GET OUT! And, because I’m older, don’t think you can regurgitate your narrow-mindedness upon me.

Most of us contribute in life. You suck life from people. You haven’t learned to give.

I was gay before you were even a twinkling in your daddy’s eye.

Go back to your backwardness and shallow existence until you have some life experiences that broaden your mind.

Learn to contribute, instead of take.


October 13, 2013


A feeling of life exhausted.

Drained of energy. Drained of thought. Wishing for life force that doesn’t come.

Sleep is a rectifier.

Not a cure.

But a place to start again.

Hi Sweetie
October 13, 2013


I thought he had come to be with me, but I looked around and he wasn’t there. The voice was there, but not the person. It was the bartender asking a patron for his order.

At the same time the Sound Of Music was playing on the screen in front of me and I could only think of him.

He wasn’t there.

Just the thought made me sad.

It’s nice to need.

October 11, 2013


Theirs, or yours?

I feel I’m the same…free, in spirit and allowing the universe to pass through me.

They feel…angst, conflict, and tension.

The daily work load has taken its toll. All work and no play makes Bobby a dull boy.
I think I’m the same, but all those who felt me carefree, address me differntly….like a problem waiting for solution.

What we feel, is not who we always are. Life situations make us different in the eyes of the beholder.

We all need release in some form to become who we are. Take a moment to BREATHE.

Getting there, like the old American Express commercial is half the fun!

October 5, 2013


The moment describing conflicting desires.

Showmanship for attention, fear of non-acceptance, the ability to seduce by movement, the knowledge of deception.

All used for their inherent purposes. For fulfilling the need to be fulfilled on some level.


Not really. But it passes time and gives us a sense of accomplishment.

What is accomplishment?

A joke!

October 5, 2013


The unrelenting quest for substance.

What is substance?

The need that drives you.

All of your wishes, your dreams, your desires, rolled into a single moment that describes who you feel you are.

Are they important?

Only to you.


Others are only considering ‘ME’.

We have to learn to be ‘US’ or ‘WE’.


It’s all about ‘HOPE’.

Pressure Cooker
October 4, 2013


Collected energy expelled quickly.

We gather momentum in our daily tasks to ‘make it’. We collect it in an unseen vessel, storing our hopes and wishes. Eventually the vessel is filled. It only takes a few moments in a timeless reality to release what we have stored. When the pressure reaches the point above boiling, everything is revealed.

It can be great or mediocre.

This isn’t important.

What is important, is the feeling from the journey you took.
Timing is everything.

Too much heat without release can explode.

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